Thank goodness

Started the day half sleep from staying up after work to cook.

Even with a strain here and there I’m most grateful for having a place of my own to cook for my family this holiday.

Family brings me back to my heart and soul.

Happy Thursday everyone

Xoxo Kandee

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No greater love

Looking at the faces of your dreams and imagining them coming to life.

That’s what I learned to do as my children grew up.

I learned to put away those dark places in me that were evil and ugly. Along the way I still made mistakes. I’m deeply sorry for those things today.

I love my children more than they will ever truly know because I don’t have the know how to show my emotions appropriately. I’m still working on my journey to the best version of myself.

This life keeps teaching that I can still learn and be better. Giving me chance after chance. I’m grateful for that.

Today I set my intentions on a hug from my daughter. I love her with all my heart. Her brothers and extended siblings too.

Today I say get out of your own way Kandee and take this opportunity to grow.

Wishing you all growth and love on this Wednesday in November.

Xoxo Kandee

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I love Fridays 

  
The drive here was mentally hard. Yet rewarding. I’m loving my stints with family and friends. It really is great to see everyone.

Much needed time to catch up.

When I get back to Nebraska I’m going to be happy that I made the decision to come. Right now I’m just preparing my for this new day to drive.

It’s Friday everyone and I hope you all have plans to enjoy some of it. It’s too good to go to waste so if you can get in some fun doing the things you love with as many limited restrictions as you can. 

You only have one life and the time clocks don’t stop for plans. Hopefully you’ll get to spend it enjoying life in the moment.

  
C.L Cunningham 

Sending you peace and blessings 

Happy Friday y’all 

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This little light inside 

Read through the different ways to succeed in writing. From promoting to socializing. From telling your friends and family to support you to get out and sell the books from the trunk of your car. I probably would if I had one. 

I remember walking the streets of California passing out flyers to this blog. I made some rather cheap looking promotional pages affordable enough to pass around. 

It felt good to do busy work. It feels good to feel like I’m doing something right. Unfortunately for there isn’t a lot of times that I feel like I’m going the right way. From marriages to parenting I’ve gotten it wrong. From job to job I’ve floated by enough to eat. I feel like I’m connected everywhere yet I fit nowhere. 

  
Writing is all that I’ve got. 

A window into my soul and a piece of gratitude for being able to keep expressing the pain. Yet I find thankfulness in the day. Always. At least I’m here. I don’t always want to be. Times like this morning where I’d rather fade to black like Amy Whinehouse. Take a drink too many. Swallow a pill more than I’m supposed to. Scream out into the darkness of the night” Lord take me now!”

  
Maybe things will fall in place. Maybe my little will mean a lot. Maybe one man will love me enough, and not to need anyone else to wet his dick for a night. Destroy all the love that was built and actually have the trust that all say that they want. Even they are usually the first to go out and do something untrustworthy.

There’s days I feel unworthy of breathing. I wonder why I continue to wake up in place that I don’t understand. Maybe the divine has a plan for me,because I’m so tired of trying to figure out one. I’d like to see a clearer picture of where to go, but the roads are all filled with fog and the paths are fuzzy at best. This world is a test and I feel like I’m failing more times than I’m passing. My grade is a D++.

Just enough to make it another day and fight. To spread light. To find good insight instead of evil egos.

Yes, I’m grateful for the creative ability to write. It’s opened doors I never expected to enter. Taking me to journeys I never planned on going. Gotten me through tough times and today let’s me tell you the story of my aching heart.

  
The battle of live to fight another day is daily.

One wrong thought on the wrong day. At the wrong hour and it could certainly cost me my REAL life.  

This time is precious perceptions of how to keep going when the weight of my inner galaxies build up all the negative energies being purposely pushed at me. Feeling like the mountain that I can’t climb because I have to come from under the rock first.

  
I’m just grateful that I have enough strength to try again.

I’m thankful I have been gifted the mindset to trust again. 

I have enough forgiveness to forgive again and again, because I believe second chances sometimes need to be third or fourth when you have absolutely no idea what your doing. 

I have gratitude for the blessing of writing. It is not just my  gift it is my birthright. 

Last day of grateful January and it didn’t come easy. I didn’t lazily wake up and get another day. I had to fight my thoughts to be here and it took me to breakdown to get up.

  
C.L Cunningham 

It’s Tuesday and we made it.
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I’m wrong but it’s alright with me

I’m extremely focused on my betterment. 
Everyday I see a quote,or a person, or an ideal that is opposite of my dreams my views and my vision for my life. 
I’m sure that we all do. 

I’m sure that everyone has something to mentally tell us that we’re wrong. Here’s the thing. You may be wrong. 

According to that person or that information you are definitely wrong. 

So what. Be wrong then. 

If it’s right for you who cares if it’s wrong for someone else. I’ve said this time and time again. 

Nobody has to live your life but you. Live it. If you covered what you could handle today then you did enough. 

  
Everyone has a different mentality. What’s not enough for someone else is just enough for me. 

I got some good advice on how to move forward with meeting other authors and people on social media. It worked. The man said do a little until it meant a lot. 

I’m not chasing fame. I’m chasing my dreams. If they include fame… well hot dayum! Bonus!!

I’m chasing meaningful relationships and friendships that last. I’m chasing peaceful vibes and beautiful thoughts. If I die today I want to know that I went on happy. At peace with myself. 

Nothing in the world is worth my thoughts being at war with themselves. Ten months ago I chased enlightenment. Meaning I went after finding myself. Finding out what life meant to me. Finding out what my beliefs were and what was really important to my soul. 

  
It wasn’t easy. I almost lost someone I hold very high in my life. Trying to become more I almost broke down. Then one day like a light bulb it came to me to go backwards. Figure out what was important to me and then move forward with my life. I’m doing that daily. 

It’s why I can be grateful. 

I’m owning my life. I’m responsible for what I feel. I’m strong in my weaknesses. 

I refuse to go at any other pace than my own. The people who love me really love me. They have zero desire to change me. I have zero desire to change them. We just grow and flow together. That doesn’t always look good but it’s reality. I love my life. 

I’m blessed for the people who I have meet along the way. I’m even more blessed for the people who have stayed. 

  
Be thankful for the journey you’re on. That’s the only advice that I can give. Because if you’re thankful in the small oh how wonderful life will be when your world becomes bigger. 

C.L Cunningham 

Keep ya head up. Hold on to your truth and don’t let nothing stop your growth.

Happy Friday y’all do it YOUR way!

Namaste 

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The power of knowledge 

Energy moves. The brain is transmitting information constantly. Even though it doesn’t seem like it is. 

  
Thoughts are gold. Thoughts are some of the most priceless things that we own. They create the past, present, and future. I imagine a world where the earth is coming together for the greater good of the next generation. 

Example of this is the great leaders of the past. They each envisioned a world that they wanted to live it. They were taking experiences of the past and working actively on making the present day become it. Which changed the way that the past was. Started to change the present and in turn made a better future. 

Knowing that any knowledge that I gain today makes me equipped with better understanding of what I aim to make my future is exciting. I can be anything that I want to be. I can change my outlook on life thus changing my life into my destiny. 

  
I asked for rainbows back in April. I see rainbows all the time now. I asked for butterflies and pretty flowers. I start noticing them more. It wasn’t that they weren’t there it’s just that I wasn’t looking for them in that way. 

By changing my expectations of how, why and where. I believed that they would show up and they do. 

I’m grateful for the knowledge that if I believe in something enough that I will find myself open to receiving it. I’m just like anyone else. Sometimes I limit myself. I put things on the back burner while I figure out if that’s really what I want. 

  
The beautiful thing about time is that it actually does wait. Yet it keeps moving. Being stuck in the past is fine if you’re a fan of history repeating itself. Living only for right now is fine if you don’t plan to go any further. Chasing the future is great if you’re willing to miss out on the present. I’m just trying to enjoy it all. Allowing it all to shape me and mold me as I in live this lifetime.

My thoughts are powerful. They are needed, but thy aren’t enough to sustain me. I need it all. I need thoughts and actions. I need feelings and emotions. I need a higher consciousness and access to my egotistical ways. I’m perfectly imperfect and I’m grateful for the knowledge of that. This way I can be open to change. 

Day 17 of grateful January and the question is what knowledge are you grateful for? 
C.L Cunningham 

Have a happy Wednesday and may you be blessed with peace of mind.
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Exciting news

Hey everyone I’m excited to share with you the launch of my new book. I’m looking for a few social friends to spread the word. You will receive an early birds pdf copy of the book and a mention in the book!!!! If your interested in joining please email me at findingkandee@gmail.com today!   
C. L Cunningham 

Sight seeing 

Seeing my children playing in the backyard screaming loud and running wild. When the truths of this world couldn’t catch them. The past was forgotten and love was all around. 

My daughter walking the stage on graduation day. 

My goddaughter’s adorable dimples when she first seen me say “hey girlfriend ” on her born day. 

Sunshine after the rain. 

  
A double rainbows reminding me of twin flames.

  
Things that I have been blessed to experience through sight. Make me grateful to be alive. 

Day 14 of grateful January and the question is what sight are you grateful for?
C.L Cunningham 

It’s Super Sunday and I pray it’s a good one for us all 🌞

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Make today great

  
Yesterday was a bit of a difficult day. 

Misunderstandings and misconceptions. 

Let it be. That’s what I tell myself. I won’t always see eye to eye with someone’s thoughts and perceptions. It is not for me to make myself or anyone else understand, but I can value another’s reasons for why they choose the things they choose. As I also hope others can value mine. 

Today is a new and wonderful day. 

The sun is shining through this -8 degree weather. 

I took the time to do a positive affirmations mediation. It lifted my spirits before I even started my day. Positive vibrations or positive energy brings more positivity. Lawd knows that I can use that in my life. 
C.L Cunningham 

Have a great Wednesday 

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