Listen for the Applause By C L Cunningham
The eyes are the windows into the soul but what if I don’t have one anymore?
I believe I gave it away the day that my demons came to hunt to me.
The day I screamed for you but nobody was there.
The day I cried for love and received regret.
No humor is found when all that’s left is a mouth that’s bond and a heart left a wreck.
Check for my pulse if you dare to care to see if I’m alright.
I’m alive in the flesh but dead in the spirit so I seem to be floating on air.
Praise be to the most high elevations of the collective mind power.
For twisting the words of the book to make pretty pictures in the sky.
Pretty words for pretty girls with good girl demeanors and vixen thoughts.
Blessed be us that are sacrifices for the imaginations of the sadist storytellers of our time.
Why wine when you are fine. Nothing on you is touched beyond the reach of rainbows and sunshine, so smile.
You’re on the biggest stage of your existence and you know you belong where the audience is bigger and the gifts are supposed to be the rewards.
Peace be with you on the journey for strength and conformation.
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Run for your life….
When life pushes you past your limits.
Makes you chase a vision and not know whether you’re going to fall or not.
Makes you run after…
The dream or fantasy or whatever.
It’s yours and now you want it.
The universe says that you can have it.
But you’ve got to go get it.
So you can see it when it happens….
Wishing you love and light on this mixed up Monday
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Stories where you are victorious are some of the best told stories around. Through history people have been passing on the triumphs of life’s victories.
Mine had a lot of cursing in it. It was the Sam Jackson version.
Left Arizona for Nebraska Friday afternoon a little after 3pm. Rode through New Mexico like a champ. Then I got stopped by border police. Go figure.
After shaking in my imaginary boots waiting on that hard green bench with my sons. We got the okay to leave. Thank goodness!
We take off and head towards my auntie’s house close to Dallas. Seeing her and the family was great. She gave a us a great surprise and put us up in a nice Fairfield Marriott. After we left there we headed to Dallas.
Let me talk about Dallas’s interstate….whyyyyyyyy!? Why are there so many overpasses? Scary loopy overpasses. After a complete breakdown I refused to drive anymore of them and decided to go the long way around.
It turned out to be a great detour. Oklahoma was packed with my native history. Something we missed out on coming through the first time. I’m super excited I got to check it off my bucket list.
I managed to stay up the full 14 hours and got through the ice. Being a full 5 degrees anything that had any kind of moisture iced right up. Hitting that welcome to Nebraska sign was like seeing a pot of gold. Heavenly.
I’m thankful that we completed the mission. We handled our business. We managed a little turn up and got back safe and sound. Next time I get the big ideal to drive across America…. stop me…. seriously. I pushed pass my limits. I drove in places I didn’t even believe I could. I slept outside gas stations and barely ate. I did it for myself and for my children, but man. The victory wasn’t just ours. When I couldn’t see myself driving another mile. I prayed. When I couldn’t see myself staying awake. I prayed. When I was so stressed out that I couldn’t think straight. I prayed. The victory isn’t mine alone and I’m loving that. I really do have a universal comforter in my times of need.
It’s Monday! Take time to celebrate your victories big and small. We only have one life to live so live it and enjoy every second while you can.
C. L Cunningham
Happy Monday everyone! Enjoy it. ❄️
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The drive here was mentally hard. Yet rewarding. I’m loving my stints with family and friends. It really is great to see everyone.
Much needed time to catch up.
When I get back to Nebraska I’m going to be happy that I made the decision to come. Right now I’m just preparing my for this new day to drive.
It’s Friday everyone and I hope you all have plans to enjoy some of it. It’s too good to go to waste so if you can get in some fun doing the things you love with as many limited restrictions as you can.
You only have one life and the time clocks don’t stop for plans. Hopefully you’ll get to spend it enjoying life in the moment.
Sending you peace and blessings
Happy Friday y’all
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Driving from state to state has to be one of the worst ideas I’ve come up with. I’m sure for other people road trips sound fun. I’m usually one of those people, but baby. Let me tell you when I say I wasn’t ready for what I thought was gonna happen….I’m understating it.
Day one it’s snowing. I mean a whole snow storm. I decide that we’re going anyway. I’m grateful that didn’t stop me right off the back. I go to the rental place and they don’t have a car for us. So they upgraded me to my dream car. Oh yes, it’s a mustang!!!!!
I make a promise to stop complaining.
Til I met the mountain top that almost took out every good nerve that I had left.
I’m afraid of heights yet I love to be high. Go figure.
Turns out that you can drive the mountains and survive. I’m independent enough to drive over 1000 miles in 30 hrs. And yes oh yes I am strong enough to succeed when I set goals that test all my boundaries.
I can make a trip to handle business fun and see the sights.
I love that I pushed through when my anxiety told me to turn back. I’m thankful for the blessings of calm in my journeys.
It’s Wednesday everyone and I hope yours as beautiful as mine.
C. L Cunningham
Sending you love and light
I’m sitting here trying to get my nerves up to go on this trip to Arizona. Im planning on driving the whole way. I have the worst case of bubbles right now. Seriously I’m silently freaking the f**ck out. I’m not the best driver and having no cell phone right now isn’t the smartest way to go. I’m using a gps and I hope it’s up to date, because gps systems can send you to some very scary and weird places. I’m speaking from experience. Considering the fact that I’m confused with most directions away.
I normally leave the distance driving to others.
Is it wrong to secretly hope there’s another option? Like for real. I’m sure that most people don’t mind long rode trips and things that take time. But the people who love me know that I’m not like that. I’d rather fly and I like to go Ricky Bobby fast. I read all signs like this:
Today I’m in love with the idea of the journey. I’m excited to see if I can push myself to get there. If I’m able to handle whatever life throws my way. If I can get everything done.
I hate the fact that I’m not sure of what it is next. I constantly feel like I’m grasping at straws. Just looking for a stable environment. Just hoping that something actually comes out good with no hiccups or confusion.
This year has been a lot of firsts. A lot of changes have been made. All while I’m trying to stay positive and focus on the good. The truth is life isn’t always easy. Sometimes it’s hard to save yourself let alone anyone else and I have children to be there for. Good or bad I HAVE to figure it out.
Please send me your prayers. Positivity and blessings. I’ll be blogging about Love for the month of February. This way I’ll look for it all month long.
Today I’m in love with the ideal of heading to Arizona. Wish me luck because I’m gonna need it.
C. L Cunningham
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Grateful January was a wonderful way to kick off the new year. I’m pleased to announce that @chantecali11 from the Findingkandee Instagram won the giveaway. She received a $10 Amazon gift card and a signed copy of my book By The Dawn’s Blue Light.
Thank you everyone who entered 💙
Have a great night everyone
C. L Cunningham