Yoked

I’m learning that it is very important to be yoked correctly. 

In religious doctrine there is the talk of being evenly yoked or paired with a someone. 

I knew what that meant to a certain level. But because I had closed myself off to full understanding I still made a mistake. 

You can be yoked to a person, job, hobby, religion  etc. But if it’s a danger to you in anyway. That probably isn’t the right fit for you.

If you go to work and you walk out drained instead of content. That probably isn’t the job for you. If you’re in a relationship and you feel uncomfortable all the time. You frown more than you smile. You probably aren’t matched right. If you go to college and you hate all your classes or majority of the people there.  You either picked a wrong major or the wrong school environment. Even places of worship can be wrong for you. Might be the right religion for you but the wrong building to worship in. 

I kept putting on my Instagram that 2017 was going to be a selfish year for me. Being selfish when bettering yourself can be helpful. 

I’m not above being wrong. When someone gives me instruction on a certain subject or topic. If it feels bad reading it or hearing it.That means there’s something wrong. Something I didn’t like. I either already know and had no plans to change. Or it was given in a way that I didn’t agree with.  And in that case I am open to receive it but probably from someone other than the person trying to give it to me.

There’s this TV show named Lost in Space from the 60’s. The robot on the show would say to the boy “danger Roy Robinson “. I still use this today. To tell myself and others to watch out. To pay attention. 

I had at least 4 people try to give me 1 message. I took it from 2. The reason. I chose who delivered it. I made the decision to get my message in a way that made me think but also it felt comfortable. 

The message was from Oprah Winfrey saying that people can bring down your energy. That we are in charge of our own energy. Friends, family, etc can drain you to where you are too weak to enjoy  your journey. Thus never being happy never having peace. There’s probably more to that message but I am happy I was able to learn something helpful. I thank her for giving the world that message. I thank those who tried to give me the message. 

I’m learning as I evolve to pass on the lessons or messages that I receive. But I’m humble enough to say that if my way doesn’t feel comfortable for you that it’s absolutely okay to get it in a feel good way.

I don’t have an agenda anymore. I used to but not anymore.I just want to be helpful.  I’m just trying to save myself from anymore heartache and pain. I probably can’t guard it all but I can lessen the blow.

C.L Cunningham 

Trying to be evenly yoked. ⭐

Walking in my truth

Yesterday was a tough blog. When I say I don’t like to think about the past. Believe it.

I’ve got enough woes to fill a river. If not a river then at least a stream. 

I need some positive energy and social media is draining. I started this when my grandfather passed. Just to vent at the universe. 

Now I don’t know how I want to continue. I’m at a crossroads. I don’t know exactly how many people are reading along. I don’t know how many people I want or am comfortable with following along truthfully. 

I asked him if he was okay with me telling about my life and his role in it. He said well you’re telling the truth and I can’t be mad at that. 

I guess at anytime that this becomes a load I can no longer bare then I will stop immediately. My mental health takes preference over anything else. I told my friend that I’m a little too real.( A little too open bookish.)

I may tailor or tweak the way I do my storytelling. I haven’t decided yet. Plus I have a habit of flying by the seat of my pants so there’s that aspect. 

Today I just want to wish you all sunshine in the middle of rain. That’s from an old song. And a redone song too. (Sorry I don’t remember the names but if you know put both in the comments) 

Until next time xoxo

C.L Cunningham 

Going to look for something to smile about 😉

My books 

Both are on Amazon and kindle ♥️ I enjoy writing novelettes. They’re short but interesting it lets me get a lot of information in a short amount of time.  

 

No games

When I decided to change my life I knew it would be a struggle. I left 80% of my income when I left him. Packed up my dreams,my 20% and my kids and headed to another state. I’ve encountered obstacles I hadn’t planned on and faced family and friends who doubt my strength and my passion for whatever is ahead of me. I’ve faced those who are so used to me helping them that when it became time to return the favor they realized they aren’t even close to my caliber of a human being. And that’s okay… we aren’t all the same. I just moved on… kids in tow because they said momma we can make it without them….and we will. ..

I came to find him and show him I’m so for real. I took my steps. I showed up. I did my work. He’s still not doing his. And once again I might have to shrug my shoulders and keep it moving because time waits for no one and I don’t have the luxury of wasting time in the first place. 

I can make it with or without you. 

But I don’t want to. 

I don’t play games. I’ve never been a fan of faking. 

The time is now… I’m here.

Where are you?
C L Cunningham 

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