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This little light inside 

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Read through the different ways to succeed in writing. From promoting to socializing. From telling your friends and family to support you to get out and sell the books from the trunk of your car. I probably would if I had one. 

I remember walking the streets of California passing out flyers to this blog. I made some rather cheap looking promotional pages affordable enough to pass around. 

It felt good to do busy work. It feels good to feel like I’m doing something right. Unfortunately for there isn’t a lot of times that I feel like I’m going the right way. From marriages to parenting I’ve gotten it wrong. From job to job I’ve floated by enough to eat. I feel like I’m connected everywhere yet I fit nowhere. 

  
Writing is all that I’ve got. 

A window into my soul and a piece of gratitude for being able to keep expressing the pain. Yet I find thankfulness in the day. Always. At least I’m here. I don’t always want to be. Times like this morning where I’d rather fade to black like Amy Whinehouse. Take a drink too many. Swallow a pill more than I’m supposed to. Scream out into the darkness of the night” Lord take me now!”

  
Maybe things will fall in place. Maybe my little will mean a lot. Maybe one man will love me enough, and not to need anyone else to wet his dick for a night. Destroy all the love that was built and actually have the trust that all say that they want. Even they are usually the first to go out and do something untrustworthy.

There’s days I feel unworthy of breathing. I wonder why I continue to wake up in place that I don’t understand. Maybe the divine has a plan for me,because I’m so tired of trying to figure out one. I’d like to see a clearer picture of where to go, but the roads are all filled with fog and the paths are fuzzy at best. This world is a test and I feel like I’m failing more times than I’m passing. My grade is a D++.

Just enough to make it another day and fight. To spread light. To find good insight instead of evil egos.

Yes, I’m grateful for the creative ability to write. It’s opened doors I never expected to enter. Taking me to journeys I never planned on going. Gotten me through tough times and today let’s me tell you the story of my aching heart.

  
The battle of live to fight another day is daily.

One wrong thought on the wrong day. At the wrong hour and it could certainly cost me my REAL life.  

This time is precious perceptions of how to keep going when the weight of my inner galaxies build up all the negative energies being purposely pushed at me. Feeling like the mountain that I can’t climb because I have to come from under the rock first.

  
I’m just grateful that I have enough strength to try again.

I’m thankful I have been gifted the mindset to trust again. 

I have enough forgiveness to forgive again and again, because I believe second chances sometimes need to be third or fourth when you have absolutely no idea what your doing. 

I have gratitude for the blessing of writing. It is not just my  gift it is my birthright. 

Last day of grateful January and it didn’t come easy. I didn’t lazily wake up and get another day. I had to fight my thoughts to be here and it took me to breakdown to get up.

  
C.L Cunningham 

It’s Tuesday and we made it.
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Artist Jeffrey Smith



Last Monday of January 

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Last Monday of January 

Gratefulness and thankfulness go hand and hand. Kind of like one hand washing the other.

Or more like one hand watching the other.

When the question for today said what family member or friend am I grateful for. It suggests to me that I could pick one. 

  
The people I’m grateful for I’m thankful for also. I’ve been blessed with many different loved ones from very different ways of life. My friends become family. My bloodline is family no matter the differences I love them all individually. 

  
My gratitude is for having anyone to be there. Whether it’s just for conversation. Whether it’s for hugs and kisses. Whether they are from my womb or gifted to me by life’s circumstances. Even though it all everyone I hold close to my heart has a reason for my gratitude. 

Day 29 of grateful January. This last Monday of January 2018, I’m grateful for my family and friends. 
C. L Cunningham 

Happy Monday 

It’s a new week of life’s journey 

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Day 28 

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Sunday is usually for winding down and chilling with family. Thankfully most of my days are like that. 

I’m taking time to write in my next book. The process of writing can be enjoyable when I need a release from everyday troubles.

  
The idea of my thoughts reaching out to others seems enviable. The law of connectivity shows that we are all connected in this world. Thus saying that we are all accountable for each other’s well being. I guess if more people took it in that light the world would really be a better place.

I’m not going to dwell on things that I can not control, but I will spread a bit of gratitude for today. 

I’m happy that I got some work done for a community program while in Nebraska. I’m hoping that my journey here will soon be over. I head back to the west coast in the up coming weeks to handle my housing situation. 

My gratitude for that is very high. I’m excited for whatever life will bring. 

  
Grateful January is coming to a close and it is day 28 what happened today that I had gratitude for? Amazing my gratitude is for work. I’m always happy when I complete something. I’m a little bit on the laid back side. Thank goodness for success in all realms of reality. 
C. L Cunningham 

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Small things 

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Wake up and the alarm rings. Thank goodness for it be without it I would probably sleep through the whole day. 

  
Turn on the television and watch a show. Thank goodness for it because it is entertaining when I want to zone out. 

Walk into the bathroom and brush my teeth. Who ever made toothbrushes are the best because what kind of world was there when breath was funky. 

  
Obviously I joke about curtain things, but what a gift it is to have the little things in life. Things that I barely think about being grateful for. 

Day 27 of grateful January and what daily thing do I use that I’m grateful for? I’m grateful for my comfy blanket. It keeps me warm and wraps me in softness. Lawd knows that I love softness.

  

C.L Cunningham 

Happy Saturday everyone enjoy the day 
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Traditionally Thankful 

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Being a mishmash of cultural differences. I haven’t fully been introduced to my traditional advances. 

  
 Being as it may an African American has to go out and search for the family traditions that were lost along the way. 

I have Native American ancestry I am also of Creole and Asian decent. From what I have been told. Our family is still doing DNA testing for full results. 

I’ve learned to create my own family traditions. Some that go along with the norms of society and some that are specialized and specific to my own. 

  
I watch a historical movie or show with my children on Dr. King’s federal holiday. I bake cookies on cookie day in December. I make thanksgiving dinner. 

For birthdays we celebrate all day from the moment we wake up til one falls asleep. We try to all see one another for the New Year. 

Day 23rd of grateful January. What traditions are you thankful for? 

Today I’m thankful that I’m alive. 

  

C.L Cunningham 

Happy Tuesday 

Namaste 

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Grateful for you

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To my dearest friends and family I am grateful for you. You make me laugh and bring truth to my days and live to my nights.

You keep me up to date and you keep me in check. You’re my light in the darkness and my thoughts are with you every single day. 

  
To the strangers that have leaned me a hand. Who have shared kind words with me. Who have given me stories to grow from. I’m grateful for you. 

Attitude of gratitude has been my 20 day journey so far for January 2018 and I’m excited to say that it feels good to focus on the positive energy surrounding this life. 

What person or people are you grateful for. Feel free to chime and give me your thoughts. 

  
C. L Cunningham 

Happy Saturday 🌞

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Touch of reflection 

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What is touch? I mean really touching. I know it can be considered an action and I know it can be considered a feeling. I guess I’m just wanting it to be so much more. 

  
An emotional response to the need of something. The need to feel or to be felt. Intellectually or physically. The need to go a step further. 

Life is full of exceptions. It can be twisted and turned into whatever the mind’s eye desires at the time.

When I learned that today’s question was what touch am I grateful for. I had to pause and think. I’m grateful for touch being a multi dimensional concept. 

  
From the touch of fingers to the touch of the heart. From the touch of emotions to a touch of irrational perception just before falling apart. From the tips of my hands to the lips on my face. The touch of a memory that I just can’t erase. 

  
Today I’m going to let words become my favorite touch of passion. 

Here’s a digital poem that I wrote. I hope it touches your soul. 

  
C. L Cunningham 

Here’s to the weekend 🌹
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