February 5, 2019

My son lost his friends. Rest in peace to his childhood.

Death and violence is preventing young men from seeing another day.

Stopping young women from seeing the future.

Holding us back.

An attack has been launched on this place.

Still we thrive in the sadness of it all.

Standing tall in our light makes us strong. The shadows will forever hold our past. We walk away from them pushing forward to etch our lives in truth of it all.

C L Cunningham

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Bus stop California

Coming from 3 hour bus rides and a good thigh boosting hills I find myself looking up.

I spend a lot of time wondering how things come to be and I realized that it’s my focus.

So I try to focus on something good.

Happy Sunday everyone …

Xoxo Kandee

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Punishment

It’s early morning and I’ve been up thinking 💭.

About how my life turned out to be the way it is now.

I just got engaged to my ex husband. It literally sounds weird to say that.

No-one else has been supportive of that decision but the children. Let me sit in that statement.

The ones who were in the home with us are the ones who believe that we can build a better foundation for the future.

They seen the struggle the arguments and the shatter of the marriage. Yet in still our support is coming from the place of hope.

I’m not sorry for trying things that others have said no to. I’m just trying to live with all of the choices I’ve made in the past. Taking them to the realists truths that I can find and hopefully moving forward in peace.

My punishment is my own self esteem being broken into pieces every time I chase something that makes me feel pain, sadness and anger.

I beat myself up after the haze has cleared. When no one is around I analyze my actions over and over again.

This time I want to look back and say I did exactly what I needed to do to be able to wake up in the morning with a positive start and a smile on my face.

– C L Cunningham

Happy Thursday everyone may it bring you happiness, love, and abundance.

Xoxo

Kandee

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This life…

Is a life without authority sane? Or insane?

-C L Cunningham

Xoxo Kandee

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A little pick me up

Urgh. I know it’s not a word but it’s the sound effect that I had all day. I feel a little under the weather today. Yet I managed to get myself together enough to go to the laundry mat and run some family errands.

I’m always preaching about having a good day no matter what my circumstances are. It allows me the peace to persevere throughout the day. I’m thankful that I’m starting to feel better. I’m going to eat my Chinese takeout and watch a movie with my boys. I’m missing my firstborn today. It’s her birthday and since she lives out of town I feel like I’m missing out 😭. I guess I’ll call it having mommy woes.

I pray that everyone has a safe and wonderful Saturday night.

From our hearts to yours.

Sending you love and light

Xoxo Kandee

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I’m wrong but it’s alright with me

I’m extremely focused on my betterment. 
Everyday I see a quote,or a person, or an ideal that is opposite of my dreams my views and my vision for my life. 
I’m sure that we all do. 

I’m sure that everyone has something to mentally tell us that we’re wrong. Here’s the thing. You may be wrong. 

According to that person or that information you are definitely wrong. 

So what. Be wrong then. 

If it’s right for you who cares if it’s wrong for someone else. I’ve said this time and time again. 

Nobody has to live your life but you. Live it. If you covered what you could handle today then you did enough. 

  
Everyone has a different mentality. What’s not enough for someone else is just enough for me. 

I got some good advice on how to move forward with meeting other authors and people on social media. It worked. The man said do a little until it meant a lot. 

I’m not chasing fame. I’m chasing my dreams. If they include fame… well hot dayum! Bonus!!

I’m chasing meaningful relationships and friendships that last. I’m chasing peaceful vibes and beautiful thoughts. If I die today I want to know that I went on happy. At peace with myself. 

Nothing in the world is worth my thoughts being at war with themselves. Ten months ago I chased enlightenment. Meaning I went after finding myself. Finding out what life meant to me. Finding out what my beliefs were and what was really important to my soul. 

  
It wasn’t easy. I almost lost someone I hold very high in my life. Trying to become more I almost broke down. Then one day like a light bulb it came to me to go backwards. Figure out what was important to me and then move forward with my life. I’m doing that daily. 

It’s why I can be grateful. 

I’m owning my life. I’m responsible for what I feel. I’m strong in my weaknesses. 

I refuse to go at any other pace than my own. The people who love me really love me. They have zero desire to change me. I have zero desire to change them. We just grow and flow together. That doesn’t always look good but it’s reality. I love my life. 

I’m blessed for the people who I have meet along the way. I’m even more blessed for the people who have stayed. 

  
Be thankful for the journey you’re on. That’s the only advice that I can give. Because if you’re thankful in the small oh how wonderful life will be when your world becomes bigger. 

C.L Cunningham 

Keep ya head up. Hold on to your truth and don’t let nothing stop your growth.

Happy Friday y’all do it YOUR way!

Namaste 

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Power of expression 

Creative expression has become my passion. To communicate isn’t enough. I want to sing from the rooftops and dance at 3 am. Write old school love stories and recite  Edgar Allen Poe.

  
To be able to say how I feel with articulation has been a present that I’ve been able to unwrap daily.

  
Blessings can be so simple. I’m grateful for all of my blessings. When I was younger I that blessings were the miracles that I received. Now I know that their everything that I’ve ever encountered. 

Waking up = a blessing. 

  
Gratitude can be the missing link to happiness over depression. To love over hate. To hope over despair. 

Day 26 of grateful January. What form of expression are you grateful for. I’m grateful for creativity. 
C. L Cunningham 

It’s finally Friday y’all !
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This week

Grateful for another week. 

Trying times a week can be. 

  
When hearts are heavy and drama tends to prevail. I can sometimes fail to be the best version of myself. 

 Finding gratitude is a way of life. 

I push myself into the realm of gratefulness even though I have ups and downs. I push myself to be thankful for others. I’m choosing to change my ways. 

  
The choice has been made to be better. My gratitude doesn’t end at the end of this month. This was a preview to the life that I would like to lead going forward. 

Moments that I’ve been grateful for this week include laughter. They include loved ones. That include a special someone that means the world to me. 

  
Day 25 what moments this week made me grateful.

I’m grateful for today.
C.L Cunningham 

Attitude of gratitude for a Thursday morning and everyday after

Sending you peace and love 💋

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Rooted Flow 

Sometimes in life things do not go my way. 

I have often tried to force situations. Pray for situations. Lie to make a situation go the way I wanted it to. 

Finally I’m at a place in my life where my ability to go with the flow has brought me through some tuff times. It has opened my eyes to different points of view. It has been a pain in my rear end but it has also been a gift from above. 

  
I’m grateful that by allowing myself the room to breakdown my barriers and climb over my on doubts. I have been able to see the world in a with a renewed state of mind. 

I’m more flexible with life. I’m more open to the beauty around me and I have become incredibly thankful for this gift. I probably wouldn’t have tried a lot of the things that I’ve tried. I would have closed myself off to the world and climbed into a mindless consciousness.

  
I can handle myself better now. I owe a lot of that to my ability to flow. To move freely,to move forward. To bounce back from fear and mistakes. To enjoy the highs and the lows. I’m still figuring out life. As I do I feel blessed and less stressed. There were days were I spent time just speaking negative thoughts to myself. Days where I couldn’t see myself being anything to anyone. Let alone a blogger to an online community. 

I didn’t know I had a voice. I didn’t know that I would matter to anyone else. I’m thankful for the opportunity, the path and the peace of mind. I’m grateful for all of you. For your comments ,for the likes and for just allowing me to have a voice on this earth.

Day 13 of grateful January and the question is: What abilities are you grateful for? I’m grateful for the ability to change, to grow and to be my most authentic self reflection. 
C. L Cunningham 

Happy Saturday 
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