Punishment

It’s early morning and I’ve been up thinking 💭.

About how my life turned out to be the way it is now.

I just got engaged to my ex husband. It literally sounds weird to say that.

No-one else has been supportive of that decision but the children. Let me sit in that statement.

The ones who were in the home with us are the ones who believe that we can build a better foundation for the future.

They seen the struggle the arguments and the shatter of the marriage. Yet in still our support is coming from the place of hope.

I’m not sorry for trying things that others have said no to. I’m just trying to live with all of the choices I’ve made in the past. Taking them to the realists truths that I can find and hopefully moving forward in peace.

My punishment is my own self esteem being broken into pieces every time I chase something that makes me feel pain, sadness and anger.

I beat myself up after the haze has cleared. When no one is around I analyze my actions over and over again.

This time I want to look back and say I did exactly what I needed to do to be able to wake up in the morning with a positive start and a smile on my face.

– C L Cunningham

Happy Thursday everyone may it bring you happiness, love, and abundance.

Xoxo

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This week

Grateful for another week. 

Trying times a week can be. 

  
When hearts are heavy and drama tends to prevail. I can sometimes fail to be the best version of myself. 

 Finding gratitude is a way of life. 

I push myself into the realm of gratefulness even though I have ups and downs. I push myself to be thankful for others. I’m choosing to change my ways. 

  
The choice has been made to be better. My gratitude doesn’t end at the end of this month. This was a preview to the life that I would like to lead going forward. 

Moments that I’ve been grateful for this week include laughter. They include loved ones. That include a special someone that means the world to me. 

  
Day 25 what moments this week made me grateful.

I’m grateful for today.
C.L Cunningham 

Attitude of gratitude for a Thursday morning and everyday after

Sending you peace and love 💋

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Illusion’s presence 

  

Life’s light turned on the presence of illusion. There in that bright glow everything started to grow. As the past started to fade away. Darkness became the color of emotions feeding life with love. 

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Grateful 

Winter is settling in and the cold is digging deeper down. Funny how when you walk away from or move on from something there’s a tug to pull you back. 

  
Call it universal, call it the devil. Call it anything you want but the energy around sticking to a decision is powerful. 

  
At a time when spirits are high on cups of cheer and merry jingles the sinister side of the world tends to show up. 

Let it snow or grow cold and freeze out the frequent frequencies of negative roadblocks. Choices for the betterment of your soul is of utmost importance. Time clocks can always be reset if resetting is required. For now I sit in the absolute certainty of my gratitude. 

  
Grateful for choosing the path that is right for my life right now. I know exactly what I want to see to make any more changes. As soon as I see them, then I’ll know the time has come for particular visions to come into view. I don’t need outside insight when I was given the answers months ago my choice to ignore them got me in a dark place. It’s taken me backwards and I had to work to get to where I am now. At the beginning of the same story with better results. 

It works for me. I’m chasing destiny. I’m giving love. I’m sharing my story in my way. I can’t ask for much more. If I’m not living in gratitude now how will I enjoy life later? It feels good to not cry. To smile and laugh at the moments before and after the storm. Dance in the moonlight and bask in the sun. Life is beautiful. I’m being blessed with another year passed. Another 365 that I survived. Thank goodness!

  
Amen. To life unexpected. I released resentment for so many pains. I’m appreciative for the push to greatness. Everyone who has helped along the way I appreciate them. Even the ones who had their own reasons for why they didn’t continue on the journey with me. I’ve left the door open for those people to choose where they wanted to be. I ended up standing on my own. It’s helping me grow. Sometimes it’s time to let go of the hand pulling you up and start climbing the mountain by yourself. A partnership is only a part of your story. Send those beautiful spirits off in love. Send them peace and blessings. Pray for their greatness and walk into yours. If ever you meet again greet them with smiles and thankfulness. Blessed is a life with happiness. 

Today I send you all heartfelt thoughts. I pray that your journeys are blessings and healing for your hearts. 

C.L Cunningham 

It’s a great day to have a great day. 

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Connection 

  
Like a neon sigh in the night I brightened up my thoughts and brought laughter to my soul. I embrace those close to me and celebrate their achievements. We shine together in this life. I’m grateful for family,friends and beauty from inside.✨

The universe starts to bring me opportunities when the intention is real. I’m focusing on my forward momentum. I’m not always sure of where these things will lead me. I’m just making sure that I’m at least open to the ideas of others. 

In the past year I have been up and down with my thoughts. Like everyone else I fall short of knowing where I want my life to be. I seen a quote that said to rest as long as you don’t quit. That’s the best anyone can do. Circumstances are tough. Sometimes it’s important to shut out the world and even your own negative thoughts and let your mind be at ease. 

I find myself trying to connect to life. In all of its glory. I’m not trying to look for anything that doesn’t fit in my box. It really only has to look good for me. It’s my life. If I don’t enjoy it then I’m living the wrong life for me. I embrace all my highs and lows. That’s life right? 
C.L Cunningham 

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Piece of peace

When dealing with people I find myself analyzing the best approach. Everyone has their own set of guidelines that they process and respond to. I want to reach out to others in a way that works for them but also for myself so that we have meaningful conversations.

Conversations that are helpful, and a blessing to each other’s lives. 

It took me what feels like forever to reach this understanding. 

To embrace the positive things about everything. Every interaction. Every thought, feeling and emotion. It was as if a light switch went on and I was no longer a victim because I was no longer allowing myself to be victimized. 

I’m not fighting. I’m training my mind to handle itself. By learning how to respond to life with a mindset that reduces the impact of negative noise. 

I’ve been in darkness and I danced my way out. I enjoyed family and friends. I studied the ways of peace. I leaned on others for positive understanding and I welcomed changes. I grew up in a sense. 

  
This is why I feel amazing. My  circumstances didn’t change drastically but my thoughts have gotten better. My mood has gotten better. I’m seeing better results in my business. My social media is looking better. My health is evolving and I’m actually thankful that I’m alive. I went from wanting to die to wanting to live. 

It feels so good to have a little piece of peace daily. 

It’s Wednesday night and the weather is calm. I’m in agreement with the universe. I’m happy and in a good spirit and I am sending peace and blessings your way. 
C. L Cunningham 

Have an amazing night and hopefully peaceful dreams. 🌛
  

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My forward attitude

Tuesday. Second day of the week. The day before humday. For those who get to do some humping. Unfortunately I’m not one of those….meh.

I’m sitting around thinking what the lesson for today was. Self reflection is as important as self esteem. The need to build up others also includes yourself. As I do that I know that I need to be careful not to constantly feed my ego. Some days are harder than others. My flaws don’t determine my worth. I ask that the universe continues to remind me to embrace, replace, and rebuild my spirit to fulfill my plan for life. 

  
The picture in my head may not be the same as someone’s else’s. That’s okay differences makes the world go around. The energy pull from negatives and positives still pulls the universe. But to where? Is the final destination the same?

Work work work. Do it, if it fully makes you happy. When the check marks are checked off, do you sleep peacefully at night. 

Anger. Have it, if it fully comes with happiness and hope for a better way of living. When the check marks are made, do you sleep peacefully at night. 

Forgive. Find it, if it fully comes with your actual soul finding it’s comfort. 

The point I’m making is be honest with who you are. As I have to be honest with who I am. I’m changing my world around me bit by bit. When I extend my love and light to others there’s a shift of attitude to myself and anyone who feels where I’m coming from. I’m grateful to use my voice, resources and gifts to contribute. It mends the broken pieces. 

I guess I’m ready for us all to be meanders in real life. I’m an person who tries to be a better human. I don’t always do that.

 So on the days I can’t be a healer I’ve learned to remain inside my lane. I’m not here to change folks. I’m here to express how I’m changing, but that takes action. Words aren’t enough. Work isn’t enough when the worker is sick, unhealthy, depressed and crazy. That builds chaos. The world has enough of that.

Today I’m reminding myself and you to let go of the pain. Unless you like pain. 

For every action there’s a little hope for grace and mercy. When I can’t be nice I know it’s time to be attentive to my own issues. It becomes time to go a different route. If I feel depressed it becomes time to think in a higher mindset. If I feel unhappy it’s time to let go of the need for something outside and heal the things inside of myself.  So that I can continue to be the light that shines for others. 

  
Simplicity is beautiful. One small change can lead to bigger results and the world becomes a better place just by living in my truths. When I’m writing I want to bring hope to the hopeless. Bring acceptance to those who don’t feel accepted and blessings to the planet. This may be a hippy mindset. A little too soft in a hard world, but that’s me. I’m a lover not a warrior but I stand in my gentleness and it’s as powerful as any sword. 

Today turned out fine. My heart is intact and my mind is at ease. Gratitude turned my attitude into my peaceful Tuesday night. 

C. L Cunningham 

Sending you love and kindness 🌞

Namaste ✨

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Sound of the alarm

Have you ever been in a room full of strangers all minding your own business and then a fire alarm goes off. Now I picture everyone’s first reaction is to run. Frantically looking for the exit. Moving semi-sporadically outdoors to safety.

  
Let’s change the picture. It’s now a room full of strangers and a gun goes off. BOOM.

  
 Did you run? Did you picture yourself waiting to react? What did your boom look like?

Sometimes mine is a tiny firecracker. Powerful small words performing a light show of fireworks. Sometimes it’s a catastrophic blow. Melting on impact.

There’s times. Times when it’s better to put the flames out before they can ever get started.

Hmm. What will make or break my moments of boom? Will it come down to doing as the crowd does? Will there be a second for clarity?

Dazed and confused.

Keeping us all dazed and confused. The sobering part of society is that there isn’t one to begin with.

The way to be.

Society is a preconceived way to be.

  
Acting accordingly. Studiously following suit. To the tune of the big drum. Beating like fist pounding on chest. With every direction pointed towards success.

I tend to be melodramatic on days of pure emotions.

Today was most definitely filled with ups and downs. Epiphany of the day. Say more than a whisper but never try to out beat a drum with pounding your fist.

You’ll never win that way.

Life doesn’t want you to win that way. At least that’s what I hear.

Fear.

 I hear fear.

Fear of understanding. As if more understanding gives you peace of mind.I sure used to think so. I’m not so sure anymore.

My life turns on at the beginning of my morning breath. Hits snoozed on the alarm and ignores the headlines.

My life leans on the kindness of others. Having a spark here and there of impatient energy.

It’s hard to stay quiet when things have hit the fan and a response is over due. I turned in three library books today all over due. There was a charge to me for being late. I wonder if there’s a universal charge for it? Being late is a reflection on your character. We get judged on our lateness and character all the time. Yet nothing around us seems to live up to the standards set before I was even conceived. I have to be frank. As in frankly I don’t… well anybody who has heard of phrase knows where this is headed.

There are no boundaries caging me in. The bars of strife and unwanted channels trying to cover up everything that makes a human being be real.  

Honest. Real honesty is that I’m living in a world where damned if I do turns out worst than damned if I don’t. 

Today I say there’s no reform better than that of a misfit. Everybody loves an underdog….until they are standing on top of you. 

 
To conquer my destiny is the dream. I’m going to achieve it and push for growth from the past and better way in the future. 

I’m damn sure going to color outside lines while do it. 

Secretly I hope that you’re all messy scribblers too.🖍

Here’s to the future. 

May we stop and smell the flowers, stand up and fight the good fight with truth. Make decisions in our lives, that not only change our historical views. But  also changes the historical storyline.

C.L Cunningham 

Sending you rays sunshine ☀️ 

 

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Lifted 

Ascending through space and time. Uncovering thoughts of past lives and hidden gems. Information locked away in the 40,000 year old ancient brain.

The funk of a decaying thought process.

Using yoga and meditation to relax is great. It’s a healthy way to heal from the inside out. As with any kind of holistic medicine there are steps one should take to be safely enlightened.

  
Opening myself up to greater knowledge seemed interesting at the time. I’ll be the first to say that it gets real scary if it’s taken too far. Some things in the universe could actually stay lost. 

Not to turn anyone away from trying or learning. It’s a beautiful transition from death to enlightenment. Death of an old mindset. Awakening or a custom built version of a brain. Equipped with knowledge that I personally sought after. Descending back into my whole consciousness and waking up renewed.

  
Learning to be careful with my thoughts. Learning the levels of enlightenment. Peace is right at the edge of the tunnel. The problem is that the ego is also there. Fear is there. Regret is there. Love is there. My most favorite emotion is there….forgiveness.

I saw on the news this morning a man who opened fired on a crowded street. The sad truth is that he might have felt enlightened. He may have pondered the effect that his actions would have on the world around him. Took one good look at himself in the mirror and went out to pull the trigger away. Feeling justified with himself. Feeling like he was fighting an injustice. Maybe feeling that the God like complexity of his human spirit deserved the right to choose one life over another.

Unlocking fact over fiction. There’s a thin line. There is also an in between. A way of sitting on the fence of good vs evil. The angel on the shoulder. 

Please find the best feeling from deep inside. Hold on to it and speak goodness into your life. Speak in into each other’s lives. Speak it into my live as I will speak it into yours.

C.L Cunningham 

There’s a better way available if you’re looking for it🌞

Namaste 

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