We meet again December

Last December I was in waiting.

Waiting for love to arrive. Waiting for the next big thing in my life.

Waiting for people to notice me and invite me in.

This December is different.

I’m reaching out. I’m moving forward and I’m becoming more and more focused.

I want to manifest a beautiful life that I can enjoy as I be of service.

I’m opening up to receive the beauty that here everyday.

I’m grateful for the journey.

Happy Monday everyone

May it be the beginning of the rest of your life.

Xoxo Kandee

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Trustworthy 

Can you trust the untrustworthy?

Let me ponder this question…

I would love some feedback on this, because it’s puzzling to me.

When engaged in a business, foundation, church, group etc. Do you look for truth? Evidence of realness. 

Isn’t it favourable to see the data on the results?

And if it’s based on growth and reviews of the fan base. 

Currently living my life under a microscope. Being searched for clues of evidence that I’m opposite of who I said I was. Continuously returning to myself altered but fiercely sustained by the original. 

Uncovering flaws and mystical gifts but the dogma remains unique and constant.

Ready to blossom forward but the deadline keeps moving the finish line. Or maybe there was never one to begin with. 

C. L Cunningham 

Pondering fact from fiction 📖

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Am I 

I woke up today…

I’m thankful for that. 

Yesterday I wasn’t in the best headspace. 

Yesterday my patience was low and my sadness was high. 

I got up expecting to have a fun filled day.  I was going to take my youngest son swimming.  He’s a teenager but a young one by autism and not age so he would have enjoyed it. The others declined the offer to go swimming with mom. I’m kool but not quite that cool if you get my parent vibe. 

Instead of just walking to the pool I googled it instead. Boy oh boy was I disappointed. 

It didn’t have a wade part. No water slide or even diving boards. I like seeing folks diving off the board. Hearing the splash. Enjoying the laughter or cheers. 

The children yelling in joy when they slide down. And this public pool had none of that. So I threw that plan out and watched a movie instead. I laughed a little and relaxed some.

But the I felt another irritation of thoughts and then a pain here and another there. And I began to feel negative. 

The day ended fairly peaceful and I got to wakeup and start over.

I feel blessed. 

I could have went to sleep and my last day in my mind could have been filled with what I perceived as pain. But I didn’t. I woke up more peaceful more excited and more happy. 

C. L Cunningham 

I wish that your today is happier than your yesterday. And your tomorrow more enjoyable than your today.

Love n light 

Vacation 

It’s summer and the need to get out and about is upon us.  

I decided to take myself to downtown LA. I had no set destination just to walk around.  I saw the sign pointing toward little Tokyo and headed straight for the District. 

I was pleasantly surprised by the beauty of the culture and the kindness of the people.  Everyone smiling and embracing the crowds of people who are just sightseeing. 

Last night I got out to a bar. It’s been a minute since I have been in one. I picked a low key time before the night time rush. I  still got to dance a lil bit and enjoyed the music before I headed back to the quiet life.

I’m trying to see anything that I can and embrace the things that make me…me.

Take a little bit of time for yourself and take a mini in town vacation. Or any kind of vacation you can even if it’s a mental one.

C.L Cunningham 

Happy Saturday night 

Weary

I woke up today energized.  Well almost energized. And I got on the path to determination. I’m trying not to procrastinate so determination is all I have left in me at the moment. 

I handled most of my business and the heat started to begin (feels like summer has officially started☉🌼) and I started to head back. I don’t know if it was the heat that got to me or the troubles on my mind. But I started to feel weary. To be made tired. I  still finished getting some more info. And I delayed some things for a better time.

I decided to take a nap. Well really I wasn’t sure if it was a nap or and all dayer (this isn’t a real word I just like the sound of it). But when I awoke I expected to feel bad or at least the same. And for some reason I didn’t. I feel lil off balance but ultimately my mind is thinking about better days. 

I’m working on continuous improvement. I’m believing in a higher power and I’m focusing on love. 

C. L Cunningham 

Today 

Laying here motivating myself to get up and go outside and pick up trash.  I met a man on the bus stop and he spoke about many things that touched my heart. It was like getting an unexpected sermon. 

One of the things he said was that someone had told him to go and pick up trash. But the key was to not pick up more than he was thankful to do. If at any point he began to complain he was supposed to stop. 

That stuck with me. 

There’s a lot of things I will follow through with for the sake of doing them. But I tend to have something to say about everything. So today I am going to go pick up trash and see how thankful I can be at being a helper to the environment. 

I don’t know where my life is headed. 

Destiny is awaiting and I have no definitive answer for it. My life is a bit of a mess. My goals have disappeared. My mindset is on autopilot. My relationships are strained and my backpack is always ready to take run on the wild side of life. But my heart is heavy and my running shoes are comfortably easy to fit. And the only thing that I can think to do is what I said I would do earlier this week. 

Pick up trash.

So here’s to keeping a promise to myself. And hopefully I’ll get focused and have many more to keep. 

C.L Cunningham 

Wishing you a happy Saturday 🌞

My city 

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I’ve traveled around and have gotten to call many cities my city. But my birth city is good ol Kansas City, Missouri. I spent many a summer here with family and friends.

My self appointed home city is Omaha, Nebraska. Home of my Cornhuskers!!!!!!🌽 I spent most of my life in the city of Omaha.

There’s a special place in my heart for Omaha. I’ve lived in Bellevue and Plattsmouth, Ne but Omaha is where I have my gratitude for. I learned ballet in that city. It opened my eyes to the beauty of the Arts.

But like all cities my city has it problems. Problems that I’m not going to focus on right now. Because there will always be problems. We need more solutions.

I made a list of things I’d like to see in not just my city but in all cites.

  • Not more police protection but better police protection.
  • Education that is great for all districts. Education that is advancing as the world advances
  • Affordable housing for all economic groups
  • Healthy foods in all areas of the city
  • Clean water for every living creature
  • Volunteer workers for after school programs
  • Jobs for all areas
  • Transportation that reaches everywhere. Every city should be connected

Child predator awareness taught in daycare, schools and churches ( I’m tired of folks raping children and nobody is saying anything)

Okay I’m getting off my soapbox but I hope if enough of us demand more from our cities. Then more of us will be living in cities that we are proud of.

C. L Cunningham

Activist (maybe)

Goals n dreams 

 I’m focusing on turning my dreams into goals. I guess for as long as I can remember, I never allowed myself to think big. Almost like it was wrong to want better. I’m surprised that it took so long for me to give myself permission to go for it! To go after the dream to chase the goals that I have set up for myself. I feel free…Excited to see what else I can accomplish. 
C L Cunningham 

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