Love Letter no. 1

Hey,

What you doing? Better yet. How you doing?

I’ve missing your smile seems like a long time I thought I was the one making you smile like that.

I feel like I’m the blame for the way things went.

I’m not able to commit.

I have a habit of running away.

With the promise that I came to stay.

I’m sorry. For not knowing my truth. I just realized it myself…

I mean everything I say. It’s just takes me awhile to see what I’ve done. I loved you. The thought of you and the way my imagination clings to you.

I think we’re more different than I thought but still closer to the mirror than I planned.

You were my mirror image. My twin flame. The more I wanted you the more I’d say your name.

I hope your doing good. I think that you are. From time to time I check from afar.

I have a lot to say but alot on my mind. But tonight I need to sleep because I have work.

If you’re not busy tomorrow I’ll write you again. Maybe if these letters reach you. You’ll know how much you meant to me and still do.

C L Cunningham

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It’s a Sin to mess with my Zen

Today has been a long day. Off to work by 7:45 to get there at 8.

Stay til 6.

I’m grateful for the hours. Sometimes sitting with my thoughts too long gives me a heep of information but not enough fulfillment in the lonely moments.

It’s nice to share your thoughts with someone.

I stay inside most of my days away from the race of life. Which is why I appreciate it when I get out.

I find it hard for me to interact with people from time to time.

My peace is very important to me.

It’s taken years to achieve Zen.

I’m being more open to the mindset of being adventurous and seeing the world. Yet I’m cautious of the dark minds that I may encounter along the way.

My motto is that the more positive I am the better.

It’s a Sin to mess with my Zen, and it’s a blessing if you can help me stay in it.

Hope your night is filled with love.

Xoxo Kandee

Namaste is the way

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Smoken Sex

Lost text.

Forgotten thoughts.

A telepathic mess.

Screenwriting you my hearts desire starting between my legs.

Fantasy currents mixing up my emotions and confusing my inner voice.

Watching love displayed as sex on the TV.

Drawing in my last puff of thoughts of you as I do.

Sensuality at it’s height of my affection my head in the direction of reaching the point of mind blowing mental tantra water flows.

Sweat soaked sheets and a window seat view of not knowing what’s next.

I rest my thoughts on the chest of where I want to be.

C L Cunningham

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We meet again December

Last December I was in waiting.

Waiting for love to arrive. Waiting for the next big thing in my life.

Waiting for people to notice me and invite me in.

This December is different.

I’m reaching out. I’m moving forward and I’m becoming more and more focused.

I want to manifest a beautiful life that I can enjoy as I be of service.

I’m opening up to receive the beauty that here everyday.

I’m grateful for the journey.

Happy Monday everyone

May it be the beginning of the rest of your life.

Xoxo Kandee

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Punishment

It’s early morning and I’ve been up thinking 💭.

About how my life turned out to be the way it is now.

I just got engaged to my ex husband. It literally sounds weird to say that.

No-one else has been supportive of that decision but the children. Let me sit in that statement.

The ones who were in the home with us are the ones who believe that we can build a better foundation for the future.

They seen the struggle the arguments and the shatter of the marriage. Yet in still our support is coming from the place of hope.

I’m not sorry for trying things that others have said no to. I’m just trying to live with all of the choices I’ve made in the past. Taking them to the realists truths that I can find and hopefully moving forward in peace.

My punishment is my own self esteem being broken into pieces every time I chase something that makes me feel pain, sadness and anger.

I beat myself up after the haze has cleared. When no one is around I analyze my actions over and over again.

This time I want to look back and say I did exactly what I needed to do to be able to wake up in the morning with a positive start and a smile on my face.

– C L Cunningham

Happy Thursday everyone may it bring you happiness, love, and abundance.

Xoxo

Kandee

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Staples 

Got up and went back to sleep. It’s a lazy Friday morning. I have a few things on my to do list. I’m really hoping that I can do them all electronically. Trying to hit the easy button on life today. Like the staples commercials.

School’s out for a mini holiday. I’m thinking about taking my boy to lunch. A Mommy n me lunch date.

I found a few prospects for a place. Praying and putting positive vibes toward those thoughts. The thoughts of a place to belong sounds so wonderfully amazing.

Ran around like a chicken with my head cut off because I misplaced the IPad. I was actually more concerned with the hidden images on this thing more than anything else. I’m glad I found it. One less thing to worry about.

Isn’t it strange? How one simple problem or situation can blow your whole mood. Like come on already self. Find your zen and hang on to it for dear life. It’s the repetition of a mindset that decided it no longer needs to panic. But panic it does anyway.

 I’m just happy it’s not as often as it used to be.

Growing and changing. What a good feeling to have. To see oneself as a better version. Life can get so cluttered with things and thoughts that aren’t going to serve your happiness in the end. Letting go of worry brings the peace back to my core. Centers my mind and calms my soul.

C.L Cunningham

Hitting  the easy button on Friday 🚨

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