It’s early morning and I’ve been up thinking 💭.
About how my life turned out to be the way it is now.
I just got engaged to my ex husband. It literally sounds weird to say that.
No-one else has been supportive of that decision but the children. Let me sit in that statement.
The ones who were in the home with us are the ones who believe that we can build a better foundation for the future.
They seen the struggle the arguments and the shatter of the marriage. Yet in still our support is coming from the place of hope.
I’m not sorry for trying things that others have said no to. I’m just trying to live with all of the choices I’ve made in the past. Taking them to the realists truths that I can find and hopefully moving forward in peace.
My punishment is my own self esteem being broken into pieces every time I chase something that makes me feel pain, sadness and anger.
I beat myself up after the haze has cleared. When no one is around I analyze my actions over and over again.
This time I want to look back and say I did exactly what I needed to do to be able to wake up in the morning with a positive start and a smile on my face.
– C L Cunningham
Happy Thursday everyone may it bring you happiness, love, and abundance.
Got up and went back to sleep. It’s a lazy Friday morning. I have a few things on my to do list. I’m really hoping that I can do them all electronically. Trying to hit the easy button on life today. Like the staples commercials.
School’s out for a mini holiday. I’m thinking about taking my boy to lunch. A Mommy n me lunch date.
I found a few prospects for a place. Praying and putting positive vibes toward those thoughts. The thoughts of a place to belong sounds so wonderfully amazing.
Ran around like a chicken with my head cut off because I misplaced the IPad. I was actually more concerned with the hidden images on this thing more than anything else. I’m glad I found it. One less thing to worry about.
Isn’t it strange? How one simple problem or situation can blow your whole mood. Like come on already self. Find your zen and hang on to it for dear life. It’s the repetition of a mindset that decided it no longer needs to panic. But panic it does anyway.
I’m just happy it’s not as often as it used to be.
Growing and changing. What a good feeling to have. To see oneself as a better version. Life can get so cluttered with things and thoughts that aren’t going to serve your happiness in the end. Letting go of worry brings the peace back to my core. Centers my mind and calms my soul.
Hitting the easy button on Friday 🚨