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Skeptical 

I’m actively looking for an apartment. We have been staying with family and now that I have decided to split from my marriage. The housing situation has become strained.

I got a wonderful email from someone renting an apartment. It was heartfelt and God inspiring. He accepted my application and I felt relief and joy. But when he asked for me to send the money via money gram my heart broke. Even money gram tells you not to send money for business transactions unless it’s a known source.  So I ask the man for his full contact info. Especially since he’s going to be my landlord and he resides out of town. He told me that the transaction was going to be in his Secretary’s name. And still never let me have his name and contact info.

Call me a skeptic but I have very limited funds. I’m barely affording the move since it’s summer break and work doesn’t start until August. I have no room for errors to put it honestly. And since he was mailing the keys and my rental agreement I would have assumed he was going to want to give me his info for any prior monthly property issues. Guess that I assumed wrong.

I may still need a place to go but I’m definitely not in the position to accidentally take any unnecessary losses. I’m not sure if I can afford a hotel room for a month but I definitely can’t afford to lose any more time.

A continued rental hunt is ahead and hopefully it will lead to a nice domain.

It’s okay to be skeptical about the things you and your family invest in. Be comfortable with checking and even double checking anything that sends a red flag in your body. Trust your instincts and pray that you have the right answers. It’s better to be safe than sorry. Happy Friday y’all!

C. L Cunningham

Still finding my way

Posted in Blog, deep thoughts, late night, life

Stars

There’s something comfortable about being out in the night sky…

Dusty breeze and an instant night light from the moon.

I tend to look up anytime I’m outside. Day or night. It’s just that nighttime brings out all the glitter in the sky.

From far away the stars sparkle so bright. 

I’m going to enjoy this late night treat maybe listen to some tunes and let the breeze fill my soul with a calming gentle touch. 

C.L Cunningham 

Goodnight 🌙🌟

Posted in Blog, dreams, Freshly pressed, life, Love, Writing

Purpose

I saw something today saying International day of purpose. Which is such an awesome ideal. Especially when you’re looking for what your purpose is. This gives a reason to continue looking.

Even if you’ve found your purpose the thought of sharing it with the world is amazing!!

So today cast your worries to the side for a while and share a bit of your purpose today loves….

C. L Cunningham

Wishing you all 🌐Peace and transparency

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Loser

In life there is the ideal of two sides to a coin. In my case two sides to a story or situation. 

Many of our struggles have two sides. Winning or losing.  One day you might have a great day and one day it feels like,the weight of the world is on top of you. 

They teach us to be good sports. Not to be sore losers in school. But what about in life? 

How do we be good losers in day to day situations?

You turn on the news and you hear the things we are taking a loss on daily.  Loss of life. Loss of finances. Loss of resources. Loss of relationships. Loss of hope.

And everybody has a loss in their lives at some point. This world isn’t always full of kindness. 

When you go to work and you got looked over for that promotion. When you have a disagreement and it’s not looking good for your viewpoint. When a business deal crumbles. When you want something that you can’t have. When you have something stolen from you. 

These types of loss aren’t considered things that we should be viewing as loss. These things are supposed to be glanced over and forgotten. But there are a lot of people who don’t forget. The feeling of losing in being stored up and tallied instead. The aftermath of loss could be damaging to the soul.

Today I ask for peace in my losing situations. To still put a smile on my face and gratitude in my heart. To not be a sore loser, but a way maker even when I don’t see the way. 

The sun is always shining somewhere. And sometimes what looks like a loss may actually be a win.

C. L Cunningham 

Using my loses as stepping stones 

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Weary

I woke up today energized.  Well almost energized. And I got on the path to determination. I’m trying not to procrastinate so determination is all I have left in me at the moment. 

I handled most of my business and the heat started to begin (feels like summer has officially started☉🌼) and I started to head back. I don’t know if it was the heat that got to me or the troubles on my mind. But I started to feel weary. To be made tired. I  still finished getting some more info. And I delayed some things for a better time.

I decided to take a nap. Well really I wasn’t sure if it was a nap or and all dayer (this isn’t a real word I just like the sound of it). But when I awoke I expected to feel bad or at least the same. And for some reason I didn’t. I feel lil off balance but ultimately my mind is thinking about better days. 

I’m working on continuous improvement. I’m believing in a higher power and I’m focusing on love. 

C. L Cunningham 

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All I wanted 

All I wanted to do is be with you. I would’ve taken any position had ya given me one.

What’s flashing lights and fancy cars to a girl who has nothing…nothing.  It’s nothing to me.

Help the world…yeah because the world needs help. Smile when you’re crying…sure ok. If I have someone to run to. Someone to lean on.

This time I ask for saving grace. To heal my heart and lighten my steps. To make me smile and thicken these thighs. And maybe once send me my soulmate so I can finally fall in love.

C L Cunningham 💋

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Letting go

I read a book that said reality isn’t really reality. Take the curtain down and forgive everything you see.

So I forgive it all.

The violence, the fear, the hate, the sadness and the pain.

I fell in love with a super star. I’m still in love. But who wouldn’t be. He’s fiiiine. Guess I’ll buy myself a poster. He got the number in his dm tho. (Just in case)

I’m working on my health. That’s important even po people got to look out for their health. I found my passion.  I hope my mind movie reaches my dreams. Maybe happier endings existence. I mean I’m still happy now. My heart is full and my job is done.

C.L CUNNINGHAM

Going to find a rainbow 🌈