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I love victories 

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Stories where you are victorious are some of the best told stories around. Through history people have been passing on the triumphs of life’s victories.

 
Mine had a lot of cursing in it. It was the Sam Jackson version. 

Left Arizona for Nebraska Friday afternoon a little after 3pm. Rode through New Mexico like a champ. Then I got stopped by border police. Go figure. 

 
After shaking in my imaginary boots waiting on that hard green bench with my sons. We got the okay to leave. Thank goodness! 

We take off and head towards my auntie’s house close to Dallas. Seeing her and the family was great. She gave a us a great surprise and put us up in a nice Fairfield Marriott. After we left there we headed to Dallas. 

Let me talk about Dallas’s interstate….whyyyyyyyy!? Why are there so many overpasses? Scary loopy overpasses. After a complete breakdown I refused to drive anymore of them and decided to go the long way around.

 
It turned out to be a great detour. Oklahoma was packed with my native history. Something we missed out on coming through the first time. I’m super excited I got to check it off my bucket list. 

I managed to stay up the full 14 hours and got through the ice. Being a full 5 degrees anything that had any kind of moisture iced right up. Hitting that welcome to Nebraska sign was like seeing a pot of gold. Heavenly.

I’m thankful that we completed the mission. We handled our business. We managed a little turn up and got back safe and sound. Next time I get the big ideal to drive across America…. stop me…. seriously.  I pushed pass my limits. I drove in places I didn’t even believe I could. I slept outside gas stations and barely ate. I did it for myself and for my children, but man. The victory wasn’t just ours. When I couldn’t see myself driving another mile. I prayed. When I couldn’t see myself staying awake. I prayed. When I was so stressed out that I couldn’t think straight. I prayed. The victory isn’t mine alone and I’m loving that. I really do have a universal comforter in my times of need. 

 
It’s Monday! Take time to celebrate your victories big and small. We only have one life to live so live it and enjoy every second while you can.
C. L Cunningham 

Happy Monday everyone! Enjoy it. ❄️

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I love it!

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Driving from state to state has to be one of the worst ideas I’ve come up with. I’m sure for other people road trips sound fun. I’m usually one of those people, but baby. Let me tell you when I say I wasn’t ready for what I thought was gonna happen….I’m understating it.

Day one it’s snowing. I mean a whole snow storm. I decide that we’re going anyway. I’m grateful that didn’t stop me right off the back. I go to the rental place and they don’t have a car for us. So they upgraded me to my dream car. Oh yes, it’s a mustang!!!!!

  
I make a promise to stop complaining. 

Til I met the mountain top that almost took out every good nerve that I had left. 

I’m afraid of heights yet I love to be high. Go figure. 

Turns out that you can drive the mountains and survive. I’m independent enough to drive over 1000 miles in 30 hrs. And yes oh yes I am strong enough to succeed when I set goals that test all my boundaries. 

I can make a trip to handle business fun and see the sights. 

  
I love that I pushed through when my anxiety told me to turn back. I’m thankful for the blessings of calm in my journeys. 

It’s Wednesday everyone and I hope yours as beautiful as mine. 

  

C. L Cunningham 

Sending you love and light 

Hate and Love it

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I’m sitting here trying to get my nerves up to go on this trip to Arizona. Im planning on driving the whole way. I have the worst case of bubbles right now. Seriously I’m silently freaking the f**ck out. I’m not the best driver and having no cell phone right now isn’t the smartest way to go. I’m using a gps and I hope it’s up to date, because gps systems can send you to some very scary and weird places. I’m speaking from experience. Considering the fact that I’m confused with most directions away.

  
I normally leave the distance driving to others. 

Is it wrong to secretly hope there’s another option? Like for real. I’m sure that most people don’t mind long rode trips and things that take time. But the people who love me know that I’m not like that. I’d rather fly and I like to go Ricky Bobby fast. I read all signs like this:

  Today I’m in love with the idea of the journey. I’m excited to see if I can push myself to get there. If I’m able to handle whatever life throws my way. If I can get everything done. 

  
I hate the fact that I’m not sure of what it is next. I constantly feel like I’m grasping at straws. Just looking for a stable environment. Just hoping that something actually comes out good with no hiccups or confusion. 

This year has been a lot of firsts. A lot of changes have been made. All while I’m trying to stay positive and focus on the good. The truth is life isn’t always easy. Sometimes it’s hard to save yourself let alone anyone else and I have children to be there for. Good or bad I HAVE to figure it out. 

Please send me your prayers. Positivity and blessings. I’ll be blogging about Love for the month of February. This way I’ll look for it all month long. 

Today I’m in love with the ideal of heading to Arizona. Wish me luck because I’m gonna need it.
C. L Cunningham 

Happy Monday 

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Road Trip Babe Raglan

What is the science of my life ?

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Everything around me is energy moving systematically. 

The universe is reflecting back my thoughts my wants and my dreams. 

  
  
The things I love that I like that I have are all in one. Exactly at the edge of my finger tips and within my reach. 

   
The science of  life seems to be ask and you shall receive. 

Perception is the key. 

I asked for gratitude. I was given reasons to be thankful. I asked for strength and I was given reasons to be strong. I asked for love and I was put in situations that required me to be loving. 

The qualities of the universal song is to open the mind to all possibilities. Well that becomes too large and to big to measure. 

  
I needed to shut my mind and listen to what was searching for me as I was searching for it. 

The answer I got was everything. Everything that I am searching for is literally searching for me. If I receive it with an open and loving positive heart. Then that is exactly how it would look.

My mission is to do just that. Allow life to be beautiful. To flow peacefully from one moment to the next. To open myself up to the mystical mysteries of this world and to enjoy the ride.

C.L Cunningham 

Happy Saturday y’all 

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This little light inside 

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Read through the different ways to succeed in writing. From promoting to socializing. From telling your friends and family to support you to get out and sell the books from the trunk of your car. I probably would if I had one. 

I remember walking the streets of California passing out flyers to this blog. I made some rather cheap looking promotional pages affordable enough to pass around. 

It felt good to do busy work. It feels good to feel like I’m doing something right. Unfortunately for there isn’t a lot of times that I feel like I’m going the right way. From marriages to parenting I’ve gotten it wrong. From job to job I’ve floated by enough to eat. I feel like I’m connected everywhere yet I fit nowhere. 

  
Writing is all that I’ve got. 

A window into my soul and a piece of gratitude for being able to keep expressing the pain. Yet I find thankfulness in the day. Always. At least I’m here. I don’t always want to be. Times like this morning where I’d rather fade to black like Amy Whinehouse. Take a drink too many. Swallow a pill more than I’m supposed to. Scream out into the darkness of the night” Lord take me now!”

  
Maybe things will fall in place. Maybe my little will mean a lot. Maybe one man will love me enough, and not to need anyone else to wet his dick for a night. Destroy all the love that was built and actually have the trust that all say that they want. Even they are usually the first to go out and do something untrustworthy.

There’s days I feel unworthy of breathing. I wonder why I continue to wake up in place that I don’t understand. Maybe the divine has a plan for me,because I’m so tired of trying to figure out one. I’d like to see a clearer picture of where to go, but the roads are all filled with fog and the paths are fuzzy at best. This world is a test and I feel like I’m failing more times than I’m passing. My grade is a D++.

Just enough to make it another day and fight. To spread light. To find good insight instead of evil egos.

Yes, I’m grateful for the creative ability to write. It’s opened doors I never expected to enter. Taking me to journeys I never planned on going. Gotten me through tough times and today let’s me tell you the story of my aching heart.

  
The battle of live to fight another day is daily.

One wrong thought on the wrong day. At the wrong hour and it could certainly cost me my REAL life.  

This time is precious perceptions of how to keep going when the weight of my inner galaxies build up all the negative energies being purposely pushed at me. Feeling like the mountain that I can’t climb because I have to come from under the rock first.

  
I’m just grateful that I have enough strength to try again.

I’m thankful I have been gifted the mindset to trust again. 

I have enough forgiveness to forgive again and again, because I believe second chances sometimes need to be third or fourth when you have absolutely no idea what your doing. 

I have gratitude for the blessing of writing. It is not just my  gift it is my birthright. 

Last day of grateful January and it didn’t come easy. I didn’t lazily wake up and get another day. I had to fight my thoughts to be here and it took me to breakdown to get up.

  
C.L Cunningham 

It’s Tuesday and we made it.
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Artist Jeffrey Smith



Last Monday of January 

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Last Monday of January 

Gratefulness and thankfulness go hand and hand. Kind of like one hand washing the other.

Or more like one hand watching the other.

When the question for today said what family member or friend am I grateful for. It suggests to me that I could pick one. 

  
The people I’m grateful for I’m thankful for also. I’ve been blessed with many different loved ones from very different ways of life. My friends become family. My bloodline is family no matter the differences I love them all individually. 

  
My gratitude is for having anyone to be there. Whether it’s just for conversation. Whether it’s for hugs and kisses. Whether they are from my womb or gifted to me by life’s circumstances. Even though it all everyone I hold close to my heart has a reason for my gratitude. 

Day 29 of grateful January. This last Monday of January 2018, I’m grateful for my family and friends. 
C. L Cunningham 

Happy Monday 

It’s a new week of life’s journey 

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I’m wrong but it’s alright with me

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I’m extremely focused on my betterment. 
Everyday I see a quote,or a person, or an ideal that is opposite of my dreams my views and my vision for my life. 
I’m sure that we all do. 

I’m sure that everyone has something to mentally tell us that we’re wrong. Here’s the thing. You may be wrong. 

According to that person or that information you are definitely wrong. 

So what. Be wrong then. 

If it’s right for you who cares if it’s wrong for someone else. I’ve said this time and time again. 

Nobody has to live your life but you. Live it. If you covered what you could handle today then you did enough. 

  
Everyone has a different mentality. What’s not enough for someone else is just enough for me. 

I got some good advice on how to move forward with meeting other authors and people on social media. It worked. The man said do a little until it meant a lot. 

I’m not chasing fame. I’m chasing my dreams. If they include fame… well hot dayum! Bonus!!

I’m chasing meaningful relationships and friendships that last. I’m chasing peaceful vibes and beautiful thoughts. If I die today I want to know that I went on happy. At peace with myself. 

Nothing in the world is worth my thoughts being at war with themselves. Ten months ago I chased enlightenment. Meaning I went after finding myself. Finding out what life meant to me. Finding out what my beliefs were and what was really important to my soul. 

  
It wasn’t easy. I almost lost someone I hold very high in my life. Trying to become more I almost broke down. Then one day like a light bulb it came to me to go backwards. Figure out what was important to me and then move forward with my life. I’m doing that daily. 

It’s why I can be grateful. 

I’m owning my life. I’m responsible for what I feel. I’m strong in my weaknesses. 

I refuse to go at any other pace than my own. The people who love me really love me. They have zero desire to change me. I have zero desire to change them. We just grow and flow together. That doesn’t always look good but it’s reality. I love my life. 

I’m blessed for the people who I have meet along the way. I’m even more blessed for the people who have stayed. 

  
Be thankful for the journey you’re on. That’s the only advice that I can give. Because if you’re thankful in the small oh how wonderful life will be when your world becomes bigger. 

C.L Cunningham 

Keep ya head up. Hold on to your truth and don’t let nothing stop your growth.

Happy Friday y’all do it YOUR way!

Namaste 

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