Category Archives: Dark

Winner 

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Grateful January was a wonderful way to kick off the new year. I’m pleased to announce that @chantecali11 from the Findingkandee Instagram won the giveaway. She received a $10 Amazon gift card and a signed copy of my book By The Dawn’s Blue Light. 

Congratulations 🎉🎉

Thank you everyone who entered 💙

  
Have a great night everyone 

C. L Cunningham 

This little light inside 

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Read through the different ways to succeed in writing. From promoting to socializing. From telling your friends and family to support you to get out and sell the books from the trunk of your car. I probably would if I had one. 

I remember walking the streets of California passing out flyers to this blog. I made some rather cheap looking promotional pages affordable enough to pass around. 

It felt good to do busy work. It feels good to feel like I’m doing something right. Unfortunately for there isn’t a lot of times that I feel like I’m going the right way. From marriages to parenting I’ve gotten it wrong. From job to job I’ve floated by enough to eat. I feel like I’m connected everywhere yet I fit nowhere. 

  
Writing is all that I’ve got. 

A window into my soul and a piece of gratitude for being able to keep expressing the pain. Yet I find thankfulness in the day. Always. At least I’m here. I don’t always want to be. Times like this morning where I’d rather fade to black like Amy Whinehouse. Take a drink too many. Swallow a pill more than I’m supposed to. Scream out into the darkness of the night” Lord take me now!”

  
Maybe things will fall in place. Maybe my little will mean a lot. Maybe one man will love me enough, and not to need anyone else to wet his dick for a night. Destroy all the love that was built and actually have the trust that all say that they want. Even they are usually the first to go out and do something untrustworthy.

There’s days I feel unworthy of breathing. I wonder why I continue to wake up in place that I don’t understand. Maybe the divine has a plan for me,because I’m so tired of trying to figure out one. I’d like to see a clearer picture of where to go, but the roads are all filled with fog and the paths are fuzzy at best. This world is a test and I feel like I’m failing more times than I’m passing. My grade is a D++.

Just enough to make it another day and fight. To spread light. To find good insight instead of evil egos.

Yes, I’m grateful for the creative ability to write. It’s opened doors I never expected to enter. Taking me to journeys I never planned on going. Gotten me through tough times and today let’s me tell you the story of my aching heart.

  
The battle of live to fight another day is daily.

One wrong thought on the wrong day. At the wrong hour and it could certainly cost me my REAL life.  

This time is precious perceptions of how to keep going when the weight of my inner galaxies build up all the negative energies being purposely pushed at me. Feeling like the mountain that I can’t climb because I have to come from under the rock first.

  
I’m just grateful that I have enough strength to try again.

I’m thankful I have been gifted the mindset to trust again. 

I have enough forgiveness to forgive again and again, because I believe second chances sometimes need to be third or fourth when you have absolutely no idea what your doing. 

I have gratitude for the blessing of writing. It is not just my  gift it is my birthright. 

Last day of grateful January and it didn’t come easy. I didn’t lazily wake up and get another day. I had to fight my thoughts to be here and it took me to breakdown to get up.

  
C.L Cunningham 

It’s Tuesday and we made it.
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Artist Jeffrey Smith



Laundered soul

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Dirty secrets of a filthy world. 

 Oh how I need to feel washed free of the sins of the skin. 

 Once again I put the cycle on spin and imagine myself covered in bubbles of redemption. Laundering the information of my mind to twinkle and shine.✨

  

C. L Cunningham 

Poet 

The power of knowledge 

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Energy moves. The brain is transmitting information constantly. Even though it doesn’t seem like it is. 

  
Thoughts are gold. Thoughts are some of the most priceless things that we own. They create the past, present, and future. I imagine a world where the earth is coming together for the greater good of the next generation. 

Example of this is the great leaders of the past. They each envisioned a world that they wanted to live it. They were taking experiences of the past and working actively on making the present day become it. Which changed the way that the past was. Started to change the present and in turn made a better future. 

Knowing that any knowledge that I gain today makes me equipped with better understanding of what I aim to make my future is exciting. I can be anything that I want to be. I can change my outlook on life thus changing my life into my destiny. 

  
I asked for rainbows back in April. I see rainbows all the time now. I asked for butterflies and pretty flowers. I start noticing them more. It wasn’t that they weren’t there it’s just that I wasn’t looking for them in that way. 

By changing my expectations of how, why and where. I believed that they would show up and they do. 

I’m grateful for the knowledge that if I believe in something enough that I will find myself open to receiving it. I’m just like anyone else. Sometimes I limit myself. I put things on the back burner while I figure out if that’s really what I want. 

  
The beautiful thing about time is that it actually does wait. Yet it keeps moving. Being stuck in the past is fine if you’re a fan of history repeating itself. Living only for right now is fine if you don’t plan to go any further. Chasing the future is great if you’re willing to miss out on the present. I’m just trying to enjoy it all. Allowing it all to shape me and mold me as I in live this lifetime.

My thoughts are powerful. They are needed, but thy aren’t enough to sustain me. I need it all. I need thoughts and actions. I need feelings and emotions. I need a higher consciousness and access to my egotistical ways. I’m perfectly imperfect and I’m grateful for the knowledge of that. This way I can be open to change. 

Day 17 of grateful January and the question is what knowledge are you grateful for? 
C.L Cunningham 

Have a happy Wednesday and may you be blessed with peace of mind.
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Memories that remind me to be happy 

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When I was about 14 years old I went to Kansas City to stay with my great grandmother. I wasn’t being safe with my life and needed to be removed from my friends at the time. I was evolving myself in activities that were dangerous to myself and others. I needed a change of environment.

My parents sent me there to keep me out of trouble for the summer. I spent those months trying to figure out things about myself. During my time there I visited my grandfather and my great aunt Zista. I remember being afraid of that big ol worn down house. The creeks and the sounds from the old wood. I jumped in her bed for safe keeping. I knew if I stayed in her room just long enough for the sun to come up that I would be alright to sleep. I needed the sunlight to shine through and show me the things the darkness couldn’t show me. 

  
That’s the beauty of the light. 

Nature’s natural light showed all the things that regular light couldn’t. Once the sun came up I could see everything that was once hidden by shadows. Hidden by darkness.

Today I woke up with some tummy issues and with some soul issues. I let myself be guided through some yoga postures and then I let my thoughts be guided through some healing. 

The beauty of memories are that they can be seen from different angles. The beauty of life is that out of the darkness comes light. 

What memories are you grateful for? I’m grateful for them all, but definitely this one in particular. 
C. L Cunningham 

Healing my soul and embracing my truth 

Happy Sunday everyone 🌞

Namaste 

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Thrown away

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Crumpled paper and incomplete thoughts.

Looking for all the love that was lost .

Forgiving leads to forgetting the bad times as well as the good.

Trying again in a different direction may just be the thing that she needs.

Left behind for the last time, it’s time to search for more.

Hell anything has to be better than lying in a puddle of her own blood smeared on the dance hall floor.

  

C.L Cunningham 

Poet

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Understanding 

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Understanding 

Have you ever been joking around with someone and they start to tickle you? 

First it feels weird. Then it may feel silly so you start to laugh and yell stop in the mist of your laughter. But when your done with it and the person doesn’t stop tickling you a little panic sets in. Anxiety takes over and now your either yelling, kicking and hitting or crying because the person took the joke too damn far. This unfortunately means that there was a breakdown in understanding.

  
That’s where I am today. I’m done being tickled. I’m no longer laughing at the joke that life keeps trying to play on me. When I love someone really love someone I’m not in the mood for games. My heart breaks like anyone else and my dreams for the future are as important as anything else. 

I made a decision to chase my dreams. A little bit late, but better now than never. I’m relying on the heavens above to point me in the right direction as I do the work. I’m concentrating on calming the storm within and listening to the hum of the universe. I’m being careful not to let my ego take over. 

I can write about being a better person. I can write about finding peace. I can write about standing in my truth but if I’m not willing to walk the walk I’m a fraud to myself. I’m not being honest with myself and that eventually that would make me dishonest with anyone reading this blog. 

I’m real serious about this walk. I’m real serious about living an in a attitude of gratitude and I’m beyond serious about finding love. Make no mistake that I’m still human. I hurt, I cry, I hope for the future but I’m doing all these things in reality. I love, I guide and I live with my decisions. I’m thankful on a daily basis. I’m grateful that I was given this chance. I literally thought that I told everyone who helped guide me on this journey thank you. I thought I covered my past with a blessing and I started walking in peace. 

That’s all I can do. 

Walk. Forward.

  
I forgive the past I pray the past has forgiven me. I’m happy and healthy. My mind is at ease. I’m looking forward to the future whatever it may be. Namaste has become my way of life. I got on my knees and asked the divine for the things that I wanted in the world. From that day I started to prepare myself for my prayers to be answered. I’m preparing myself for my dreams to be manifested in real life ,in real time, and with real people.

No matter how hard it feels to be out of my comfort zone I keep going. I had an amazing coach who taught me to push past the tears to face my fears and get out of my own way. I hope he takes his own advice. 

There’s greatness out here in these streets. There’s hope for a better tomorrow and there’s changes to be made for anyone who’s willing to change. That’s what I’ve learned on this journey. 

Love resides inside of me. I’m thankful to be able to write about it. To be able to share my gratitude to others and for the people who have helped me along the way. I know that there’s love waiting on me as I walk into my destiny. I know that I’m going the right direction and that I’m on a beautiful path. I’m enjoying the views and taking mental pictures as I say  “Thank you universe for another day of life!!!!”

It’s another gorgeous Tuesday morning. The day has beautiful gifts to be uncovered and hope goes a long way when I’m tired and running out of zen. 

The power within hits the recharge button. I then listen to a little music and I open my heart up to the love surrounding me. 

Here’s a quick way to release some tension through yoga. 

  
C.L Cunningham 

Namaste it’s not just a vibe it’s my way of life🙏🏼

Sending you all peace and blessings ✨

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