It’s early morning and I’ve been up thinking 💭.
About how my life turned out to be the way it is now.
I just got engaged to my ex husband. It literally sounds weird to say that.
No-one else has been supportive of that decision but the children. Let me sit in that statement.
The ones who were in the home with us are the ones who believe that we can build a better foundation for the future.
They seen the struggle the arguments and the shatter of the marriage. Yet in still our support is coming from the place of hope.
I’m not sorry for trying things that others have said no to. I’m just trying to live with all of the choices I’ve made in the past. Taking them to the realists truths that I can find and hopefully moving forward in peace.
My punishment is my own self esteem being broken into pieces every time I chase something that makes me feel pain, sadness and anger.
I beat myself up after the haze has cleared. When no one is around I analyze my actions over and over again.
This time I want to look back and say I did exactly what I needed to do to be able to wake up in the morning with a positive start and a smile on my face.
– C L Cunningham
Happy Thursday everyone may it bring you happiness, love, and abundance.
My twisted thoughts as collaboration between the lines. Took the time to go deep in my mind and erase all the visions that weren’t true.
Apologized to myself for leaving me behind and grasped on to the truth… I love with a part of me that I can’t get back. So I guess I’ll just begin again.
C L Cunningham
Happy Thursday night I hope it’s as good as you need it to be
Sally tried one more time. Tired and frustrated she aligned her whole body’s energy and forced a chi ball with her hands.
On command she threw it against the brick and iron strong wall with a one, two, three punch.
Instantly all the pieces exploded in the air, as the bust cleared. Visual proof was now shown.
Sally had known all along that she could do it. Her frustration was that she was hand picked by the elite group and then repeatedly pushed to see what see would and could do.
If the point was to make them believe she had already made them believers.
The head of the program came behind the glass and put out his hand. Well done ma’am. I didn’t think you had it in you and now I see. If you’re ready I’d think that we’re ready to fight for us.
Sally shook her head is belief. No disrespect but who the fuck is gonna fight for me.
C L Cunningham
Balance the difference. I like to think of it as energy. The difference between having your head in the clouds and your life down below.
The importance is not what you know. But by how you figured it out.
Once you know what life is about you’d choose differently and find the joy of simplicity.
C L Cunningham
I thought my home was with you if only I had known what you were going through.
Today I received some stellar news.
I found out a poem that I submitted had been published. I’m thankful for the blessing. I had envisioned myself being in the magazine back in my youth and still went for it as an adult.
I am excited for the chance to live out some of my dreams.
The magazine is called Fine Lines and here is the link to the issue that I am featured in. Enchantment by C L Cunningham
Today is a wonderful Wednesday and I hope you’re having a good one.
📸finelinesmagazine Nia Karmann