I’m a true romance watcher. I love where boy meets girl and they fall in love. I’m all for the forbidden romance that has to fight for it’s love. I even love the ones where one doesn’t realize that they are in love to almost the end of the movie.
But my life isn’t a movie.
And love in the traditional sense has yet to find me. The search for it has taken me on a rollercoaster ride or two (maybe three lol). But I haven’t found one to fillful me. And sometimes I have to let go of false reality when I think I found it and it’s not right.
So I started to look upward. And inward. The world is a tricky place. Friends could be foes behind your back. And you aren’t always the life of the party. Sometimes your not even invited.
Which is just fine.
Finding my own lane is of utmost importance. I was searching for me and I found a weird world that I don’t fit in to. I want love but not if the price is my sanity and my peace of mind.
I’m fine with being less than in the eyes of the world. If it means gaining a life that’s more pleasing to my walk with the most high. And I’m not trying to to preach to you. I’m not a preacher. I’m just a storyteller telling you my story.
I wish my fairy tale started today. The thing I work hard for is love. I don’t care about anything else on this whole planet.
Not a job, not material things, not anything but love. I’ll go wherever the wind takes me to find it. And if I can’t see it in the horizon I’ll keep it moving until I do.
Right now my heart broken but it’s of my own doing and I’ll take responsibility for that. My eyes are looking upward and my heart is full with the love of a higher power.
Hopefully I can change the world with with one word. But today I’ll settle for just changing my mind.
C. L Cunningham
Searching for a love that belongs to me 💙